Tuesday, March 30, 2010

On teething.

"Teething is the normal process of new teeth working their way through the gums. 'Cutting teeth' is too strong a term...Most children have completely painless teething. The only symptoms are increased saliva, drooling, and a desire to chew on things. Teething occasionally causes some mild gum pain, but not enough to interfere with sleep. Your child won't be miserable from teething...(Teething) probably doesn't cause crying."

Clearly this author never had a teething baby.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

And I'M the bad guy...

Go figure.

I'm driving home today. Here's my story.

I come up to the light at Cathedral and Main, and plan to turn right. I put my blinker on and pull into the turning lane in front of a parked car that was parked a little too close to the light, therefore, causing the back end of my car to stick out a bit in the other lane. Now, there were two folks crossing the street, so I patiently waited for them to cross. A car was coming up behind me (in the lane that I happened to be sticking out in) and was not too happy that he had to go around. So, he lays on the horn and does one of those drive by glares at me. Meanwhile, the lady who was crossing the street (who from the outside, looked like sweet old lady), thought I was honking at them to hurry up, and turned around to flip ME the bird.

Unbelieveable old lady, unbelieveable.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Small Group.

I'm just gonna throw it out there. I love my small group. Each and every person in it. I love what each person brings to the table. I love the conversations, the laughter, their thoughts, their questions, their support, their ideas on what is going on in the show LOST.

We are working our way through the Old Testament, and we now find ourselves in 1 Samuel. One of the fine folks made mention that in some ways it seems as though we've been doing the same bible study since we started the OT, because it seems to be this cycle of the people stray (I know...a broad term), and God redeems. I don't think it's a bad thing to be hearing this every week. Not that this gives us a free pass to stray because God will redeem, but I think it's good to be reminded that God loves us and is for us, even when we stray. He's always for us.

I'm listening to some song on the weather channel...
"We will not become lazy lovers...nooooo....We won't commit to casuality, won't give in to human fraility, we won't give in when things get tough. No, we will not become lazy lovers"

Hee hee...the next song to start up was...
"I'll get over you...I know I will"

I don't know why I posted this, or why I find this so funny.

At any rate, I love my small group.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Day 6, part 2.

And once again, I'm brought to a place where it doesn't matter how tired I am, how annoyed I am, how whatever I am...I am so blessed to have such a wonderful little boy.

When he sits on the floor to play, he'll often set his toy of choice down, turn to me, hug me, then return to playing.

Day 6.

It's hard to believe it's been 5 days since Cody left. Charlie and I are hanging in there...somedays it feels like we're barely hanging in there, but we are.

It's been a harder week so far than it has been in the past when Cody has gone away. Charlie seems to be more aware that he is gone this time. Tuesday was pretty good...but then Wednesday rolled around. Cody usually feeds Charlie his supper, and when I tried, he wouldn't have it. Same on Thursday. So, 2 days, no supper. Good times...On top of all that, Charlie decided to show his sadness by the means of poo. On numerous occasions. Once on my kitchen floor. I'm not even sure how that one happened. He was sleeping mostly through the night the few days before Cody left, only getting up once, and since then, he's been up 2-3 times, therefore, I've been up 2-3 times. I tried to let him cry it out last night. I feel bad for the little dude...he's so tired and misses his dad.

I'm trying to be a good, loving and patient mom...but it's been hard. I called my sister yesterday and she came and picked Charlie up and took care of him for the afternoon. That was a nice break. A chance to re-focus, regain some energy.

After church today, we had a church family brunch. I knew Charlie would slowly fall apart there, being nap time and all. And he did. Maybe it was just me getting sort of annoyed, but I was tired, and really didn't want to be the one with the annoying baby today. A friend told me afterwards, that he's not an annoying baby, that he's just being a kid and that it's ok. I almost started crying. I don't think he meant to bring me nearly to tears. I'm sure it's the lack of sleep, but it got me thinking...

Maybe I'm expecting too much from my little boy. I know how much I miss Cody. If I had no way to speak out how I was feeling, I'd probably fuss and cry too.

Little does Charlie know, his week is gonna get worse. He gets his next round of shots on Tuesday at the doctors....

Lord, give me strength.