i shall blog.

Well, given our financial state at times, the internet seemed an unlikely luxury. But thanks to Cody's "won't take no for an answer" attitude in dealing with MTS, we have a pretty sweet deal for the next 6 months.
So...I am back.
There has been many happenings since my last post...

An Update:
1. We have moved into our house. And I love it. It's not totally finished...but what needs to be finished are all those little things that nobody ever gets around to finishing once they have moved in. Like painting trim. Nobody likes to do that once they've moved in.

2. I watch my nephew 3 days a week still. Which I love. Him and Charlie have gotten pretty close and play really well together, which is fun to watch. I can see them growing up like brothers. It's pretty sweet. Gus always has some crazy things to say that are quite hilarious and make my day.

3. Charlie...good grief. That boy is super busy, into everything, has to do everything by himself, loves to read books (especially "if you give a mouse a cookie", which I can recite to you from memory if you'd like). He's a pretty easy going kid for the most part...he has his dramatic moments like anyone else. He's definitely at a fun age...I'm loving that I get to stay home with him so far. I would hate to be missing out on all this!

4. I'm pregnant. 15.5 weeks pregnant. So still quite a ways to go. I was quite sick with this one for the first 3 months, which was not enjoyable at all. I had two suggestions of food items that apparently help to curb morning/afternoon/evening/night sickness...milk chocolate and olives. I'll let you figure out which I opted for. Alas though, the sickness is gone and my belly is starting to grow. I'd say I'm past the awkward "is she getting fat?" stage and more into the "oh...a little baby bump!" stage. Which is nice. I had a lady I knew when I was younger hold her hand on my belly for a good 30 seconds, smiling and going "awwww"...it was a little weird. Anyways, I'm due August 13. I hope this baby comes early, because labor on my birthday sounds terrible. I think 2 weeks early would be nice. And maybe it will be a girl...afterall, I wasn't sick AT ALL with Charlie...

5. Not to get all depressing and stuff...but I've been thinking a lot lately about the baby Cody and I lost last summer. I would be coming up to my due date in 2 weeks now, and it seems to be on my mind a lot lately. I'm very thankful to be pregnant as this day approaches. I think it would have been a lot harder to cope with.

I hope I can keep up this blogging...so many things happen throughout the days that I'd love to be able to remember...

I should be at small group right now. I am not.

I was excited to get out of the house this evening, to spend some time in conversation with adults...but alas, I am still at 'home'. I was getting ready to go, was all showered when it hit me. All of a sudden...BAM! sick. Down for the count. Pathetically curled up on the bathroom floor in a clammy state. Fast-forward 15 minutes, not feeling much better, but freezing cold, curled up under blankets in my bed. Far more sanitary, if anything.

So much for adult time.

Bummer. Or as my nephew says, bombers.

I once got a card that said:

Some days are hopscotch kinda days...Others are getting hit by a dodgeball kinda days.

Definitely a dodgeball day.

Oh dear...

Once again, much time has passed. And once again, I am fully aware that probably nobody reads this, so this time passed has probably not been noticed.
However...I have noticed, and things have been happening, so I'm gonna write about it.

We bought a house. With much help from family. I was super nervous about taking on this "show" home as it was called at the signing. This "show" home has been gutted to the drywall and needs plenty of work. Bonus though, it came with a washer and a dryer. And a toilet.

I'm excited about working on this place, and making it a great home for our little family. We started to work today...ripping down walls, scraping floors, tearing out the entire bathroom, buying a tub, muddy-ing and puddy-ing the walls...

Tomorrow is the day we finish packing and cleaning our north end home. It was a good home...I'm happy to be leaving the north end and be closer to where we actually live our lives.

I'm super pumped to shop for stuff...tiles, paint, flooring, faucets, light fixtures, bathroom fixtures, cabinet hardware....oh, and a new dresser because the tiny closet just won't do!

So thank you to my family. We couldn't have done this without you and are so excited to be in our own home!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLIE!

Ok...I'm 2 days late in writing this, but I don't have the internet at home anymore, and my blackberry skills aren't quite up to par to write an entire blog.

But, alas, my little boy is 1. I can't even believe it. We celebrated his 1st birthday and my sister's 22nd birthday this weekend. Needless to say, Charlie stole her thunder...much to her dismay. ;)

It's hard to believe that he's already 1. This year went by so fast. I have never in my life lacked so much sleep, but have loved every minute of it. I will probably even miss the 3am snuggles.

sad...

i hadn't even had the joy of telling people that i was pregnant yet.
but i was...just about 8 weeks.
we lost the baby this weekend.
i don't really know how to put in words what i'm feeling. there is definitely a deep sense of loss for this little baby that i will never meet. my heart hurts at the thought of that. i don't even know if it was a little boy or girl...
cody and i were very excited about adding to our family...charlie and this little one would have been 18 months apart. it would have been a busy household, but that's what i've always dreamed of...lots of little ones running around.
i went through a wide mix of emotions...i was mad at God, i was at peace, i was mad again, i was sad, i was trying to figure out the reason why, i was blaming myself, i was blaming God, i was all over the place...
but at the end of the day...i suppose i am at peace. there is no reason why this happened. i know God is good.
i'm sure it will be hard when this little one's due date comes around...which would have been march 16.

To do...

1. hem kitchen curtains
2. buy curtain rod for kitchen and office
3. make curtains for office
4. finish dress for wedding
5. clean the toys that were in the tub when charlie decided to take a crap
6. wash, dry and put away dishes
7. clean everywhere and everything
8. pack for ontario
9. find an umbrella stroller...anyone have one i can borrow for a week?
10. get a massage
11. pedicure? i think so...
12. go to zoo with cody and charlie
13. get bloodwork done...boo urns....
14. make 2 wedding cards
15. withdraw cash to put in wedding cards
16. bring in my serger to be fixed
17. decorate church for friend's wedding
18. find a job
19. complain about finding a job...i kinda wish mat leave could go on forever...
20. finish my book
21. water neighbours plants...any ideas on how often outdoor plants need to be watered? i don't have a yard...

ugh...