Wednesday, January 11, 2012

my resolutions.

I've never really been one to make (and keep) New Year's resolutions. I usually come up with an impressive list of things I'd like to change in my life:

ex: start working out more, drink less coke, be more 'green' and earth friendly, read my bible more, etc, etc, etc...

Let's just say this, it's the 11th of January...I have not worked out once (unless walking to my car in the garage counts), I drank coke on New Year's day (and on the 2nd, and probably the 3rd...), I am actually pretty conscious of 'living green', but there is still a few more things to change, and I am working on those, and I have read my bible once (which, technically speaking, is reading it more...I have been seriously slacking off).

Anyways, this New Years was no different...same list, different year. But something has changed in me. I think it was the way the New Year began. If you recall, January 1st fell on a Sunday this year. So while much of the city is still asleep after a night out, I was in church, with a good group of people. I don't remember much of the service, but I do remember thinking that being in church is a good way to start a new year. There was something that felt so right about it. It felt right to be with my church family, singing praises to God, to be reflecting on the year past and the year to come. It wasn't just making a list and hoping I stick to it. It really was the so called 'kick in the pants' I needed to get going with things I've been wanting to change in my life. I think we should rig the calendar so that New Year's day falls on a Sunday every year. It was good.

I realize it hasn't even been 2 weeks since 2012 began, but this change in me has continued (long past my 'resolutions'). I feel like something has shifted in my spiritual journey...ex: i CARE about my spiritual journey. I feel like something has shifted in the way I think about being a stay-at-home mom and what that should look like. I feel like something has changed in the way I have held onto past bitterness...ex: seeking to let that go.

I think 2012 will be a good year. I'm looking forward to what it all holds.