Tuesday, May 8, 2012

It's been a long time since I've done the solo parenting gig for a long stretch of time, and I have yet to do it with both boys. The longest I've been alone with both of them was a weekend, when Cody left on a Friday and came back on a Sunday. He is in Haiti right now. I'm glad he is there. He loves it there. But I miss him here. And so does his 2 year old. I think this is the first time that Cody has gone away that Charlie really seems to grasp what is going on. He'll randomly start crying out for "Daaaaadddddddddddyyyyyyyyyyyy" at any give time of day, he fights nap/bed time even more so and longer than he normally does. He's more aggressive. He just wants his dad. I feel so bad for him...my heart breaks everytime he cries out for him. I find it very challenging to be a good parent, to be firm with him when he's up and down from bed, not letting him get whatever he wants... I just want to spoil him rotten because I know he is having such a hard time with Cody being gone. But at the same time, I know that won't help either. I just want to cry. Because that always helps, right? I had to lock the door for a few minutes in his room so he knows that he can't come out, and that he has to nap. He's crying for daddy. And in that process, Jacob woke up...so he's crying too. All this to say, kudos to you single mama's or papa's out there. You have a tough job...and of all the ones I know, you are amazing, patient, loving, kind parents. I admire your courage to do it alone. Way to go. Next Tuesday can't come soon enough for little Charlie...and for me too. Cody, we miss you.